Sorry to say everyone I broke after 2 months of sobriety. I’ve been waiting and waiting for me to find happiness in life after quitting. Hoping one day it would just snap in. But it hasn’t yet and boredom and depression got the best of me. I never realized how hard it was to quit until I actually did. I always thought I could if I needed too and that it wouldn’t be that big of a deal(after 15 years of weekend binging) But two months felt like an eternity and I couldn’t shake the feeling of not having anything to look forward too. I feel weak now. Controlled by something I never thought I actually was controlled by. I’m actually more scared now then I’ve ever been because of feeling the least in control of in my life that I ever have. I just wanna drink with the buds. I feel like I’m not living when I’m sober I’m never being myself. Agggh I’m so frustrated. I know this probably isn’t an uncommon occurrence. Thanks for the read. Much love yall