So sorry this happened to you Sweatyhands.
I've been close myself. Fell off a ferry once. Between the wharf and the boat. Fell off a train. Don't ask me how I survived.
Once, finished up on a drunken/ridiculous train trip to the Blue Mountains late at night. On my own. No-one around. A car stopped and 'watched' me. I had to run to the overhead bridge so that I could at least have a vantage point. I watched him, as he watched me.
If not for a garbage truck (oh, the irony) using the road late at night don't know know what would have happened. Dead in the Blue Mountains, never to be found. All alcohol related. Always putting myself in unsafe situations. Insane.
I am totally committed to sobriety now Sweatyhands. I'm too old for it too.
Feel embarressed disclosing this to people, but it IS my truth. A cautionary tale. Particularly for women. It was so scary.
Glad you have seen the light, just as I, and will never have to endure this bs ever again. This stuff really is life and death.
I choose Life. So glad you have too.
Sipping hot milk with nutmeg and hitting the sack. Sober.
So glad you made it.