Originally Posted by
Anna 
I'm sorry you're struggling right now, Gabe. It sounds like you have some good plans in place to help you through this. If there are events around Christmas that are stressing you, can you consider skipping them?
I'm skipping most of them. I am going to do Christmas day with the family but just for a few hours. I'm scared of all the time I'll have. 16 days. I'm going to spend this week working out a timetable to fill the time with positive things.
Holidays are a big problem for me. I've done this 3 times this year; had 2/3 months sober then relapsed when I'm off work. I'm just feeling defeated but I'll have to dig deep and work out a way to get through it. Thanks Anna.