Posting instead of drinking
I am still in a horrible frame of mind. Angry, resentful and exhausted. The perfect hat trick for a relapse.
I'm on week 9 and this is always the danger zone for me. It's also a bad time of year. Weather is miserable, it's dark all the time and its ramping up for the Christmas break. Two weeks of festive nightmare.
Sorry for being so negative. I'm just sick of this. I want my positive and grateful attitude back. I have my stuff packed to go swimming, counselling and a meeting planned in the next couple of days.
I need to turn around and keep going in the right direction or I'm going to end up drinking again and I'm struggling to connect with why I don't want to.
So here I am on a Sunday night. I'm sober and I'm posting instead of drinking.