Are you drinking now? When is your day one going to be?
Do not got give up on yourself. This is for you. This is your life.
You deserve to be sober. Please try not to think about what others might think. Unless you use their wisdom for support, guidance and motivation. I have relapsed many times. I am so grateful I have another chance. You do as well. Trust me if I end up in a jail, institution, nursing home or dead - I am going to be upset that I did not give myself another chance. I felt shame going back to AA as well but I am trying to save my life. Keep your head up and embrace all the people who care about you here and in the real world
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