I'm sorry to hear you're still drinking Stable.
I think speaking with your SR, counsellor, embracing a meeting based method liek AA or some alternative or lookung at your outpatient or unaptient rehavb options could be the best Xmas present you can give youself.
You've tried to stop on your own and that doesn't seem to be working, man.
Time to call in the cavalry - all some or whatever mix of the above suggestions you like.
the only thing that's gonna break this cycle is change - and I mean active doing stuff actually making kind of change.
You can stop digging that hole anytime you like, y'know?
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