Hi Jeff,
I was going to comment last night when I first read your post, but there were already some very good posts by very good people. I didn't think I could add anything that hadn't already been said. I would however like to make a couple of quick comments this morning. I am mentally ill. I started having problems in high school and it hasn't ended. I can relate so well with what you were going through that it's scary. You loose all perspective of life. The feeling does end, but at the time you can't even grasp that concept. It's painful. Anyway, I'm rambling here. I'm not implying you are mentally ill, but you really need to go see a doctor. Finding a psychiatrist is easier said than done. Start with your personal physician, if you have one. Or start on the internet. You really need to do it sooner rather than later. As Dee so eloquently said, there is need to suffer.
Good morning!