Yep.
I just stopped drinking for months because I had convinced myself I could handle it and I was just being stupid.
Except with every single binge, i would make an idiot out of myself. And then I'd be remorseful and then I'd convince myself i can handle it the next time. And then i would go into withdrawals after making an idiot out of myself yet again.
I hate alcoholism. Now I want to be part of the solution.