Thank you so much for the responses.
In retrospect this post I wrote is self serving, pity me and just plain ungrateful.
I am lucky I did not kill anybody , no legal trouble, still have my life
and I am sober today- I am detoxed and have 24 hours sober day 10 and that is a miracle.
I should be thanking my lucky stars and not be complaining
I am going to take the above suggestions.
Truth I was drinking on antibiotics. My fault infection still here.
I got my new insurance card (I switched) so can see my DR.
Truth is I can get a duplicate license . I do this every six weeks like clockwork.
When drinking I lose everything of value on my person. I have had more phones than I can count. At least 3 a year for the last seven years *sad*
I can go to the SS office the next town over so they will print a card for free
(boo hoo big deal) put on your big girl pants.
I can get a *get well* job- since that is all I can maintain anyhow (hopefully)
I have the last of my funds to pay this months rent.
I can set up a payment plan for December then my lease is complete
I am not working and I can take my time and get organized move the
rest of my things into my own room at my parents and clean/scrub the old place. Its called taking responsibility moving on and *life*
Maybe I am going backwards. I need to go backwards. I can not be isolated
and living in a place I can not afford. I need to do this for myself and work on my
recovery /sobriety.
Bottom line I can not exist drunk any longer. The pain has finally broke my denial.
I want to be sober more than I want to drink
thank you again! Anna I am going to start checking off this list.