Hi Dee!
yes I did have a sponsor the last time and was on step 5 when I left. I had about 40 days sober that time. I’m going to see if I can get in touch with him again.

Most importantly I need a strategy for when my mind says ‘screw it lets drink’. That thought is the start of a irreversible slide towards that first drink for me. I have tried simply observing the thought without judgement as mindful meditation teaches. But sometimes I’ll spend a whole day wrestling with the thought that I simply cave because I’m mentally exhausted of thinking about drinking.

I need to learn to deal with difficult emotions. This is something I have never been good at.

i have a lot of work to do I know. But for the short term, I need strategies to help me get that thought out of my head or effectively deal with it when it arises. I don’t know if I’m making sense!

thank you