She's hurt, I've lied, I've been using..........she is not an addict in any way shape or form. Having to deal with my addiction in our last 22 years together I'm sure has been beyond difficult. I've put time of abstinence together. Always go back. I went back about year ago and it's taken its toll very quickly physically, emotionally, spiritually............this is serious, I don't want to die. Yes I'm leaving her with alot of financial responsibility.........I'm sure she's stressed........... I can beat this thing without help, serious help, which I'm 99%sure I've found a residential treatment facility.