Getting off benzos is no easy task. At least when we detox from alcohol they can use benzos to help us with that. But that tapering off the benzos is tough stuff. So congratulations! And 90x10mg? Jesus. 10mg valium knock me out completely. I took one when flying from Idaho to Florida and slept the entire flight....and I don't sleep on planes. And they are just like alcohol, you build a huge tolerance really fast so they simply don't work long term unless taken very infrequently. Which a lot of alcoholics find very hard to do.
Anywho, doesn't help to blame the medical community or the drug companies. I think most of us know at some point when we are addicted and need to turn around. And like any addiction, that justification and rationalization doesn't ever take us down a healthy path.
Great job.