Thank you! I felt better just having written it.
My parents listen and talk with me about it. They are supportive. Thankful to have them as sounding boards. I don't talk a lot with my friends about it, except one and only because she is married to an alcoholic as well. It's not super out in the open, although if people can't see, its because they aren't looking. I haven't sought help yet but am considering going to Al Anon at my church, though I fear it may cause severe backlash from my husband. He "doesn't have a problem"