Thanks for all the responses guys, very helpful in getting my mindset right!

This morning not thinking like that at all... it comes in short waves and that’s when I came here.

And just so I’m clear I am 3 months sober again, didn’t just come off the 1.5 month “off and on bender”.

Feel great this morning as opposed to like crap.

As most posts here say I do need to rework “fun” mentally and actually.