Yep, yep yep.
And the weird thing is, I still bat away thoughts of moderation.
Knowing that you can’t moderate is kind of like a daily leap of faith.
We just dont remember how many times, just how often and how quickly we went back to abusive drinking after starting a moderation plan.
The work continues, even after years. It’s easier to stay stopped: but that lie creeps in all the time anyway.
I have some core experiences from my drinking that I draw on when that one comes back. I have plenty of painful examples.
It helps to hear it here but if you delve into your history, you’ll see. The truth is there.