It is so hard we all struggle but know this the pain I feel is unbearable. Addiction has killed my soulmate. It is going to take a long time to recover to function. I'm strong for my girl now I have to live life with basically thinking one more. That's what I'm sure we all think. One more drink to us then car accident one more then in jail one more then we die. The heartache I feel is beyond words. That one more I could fill a bathtub of tears for my wife. She is ashes now gone I'm lost lonely and scared. If you have a support system please take it. Rehab friends family doctors anything. She wouldn't and would commit for about a day please dont hurt us. Speaking for me this is awful.