Stupid thnigs I said
Hi,
I have to get this off my chest in a safe place. My EX recently said she felt she could never go into an inpatient program because I would have not been able to handle the separation. There is some truth to that statement. I recall when she was talking about inpatient stuff a long time ago and I said I hope we can stay in touch and that my fear was that when she got sober she would not love me anymore...yes, I said it. I also begged her to go and even borrowed 15K from my parents last January and had it at the ready when I asked her if she would go and I would pay. I don't know, but that cody behaviour is no good, I know that and I regret ever saying it. Feeling bummed out. I never wanted this, I know she didn't either. I just wish I never brought my fears up with her. I somehow put her and her disease on this pedestal and that once she was healthy, I would not matter. Did anyone ever here feel like this?
Please help