Originally Posted by
Patterson 
I wouldn't call it meditation....but when things are quiet, and before I fall asleep.
I visualize myself as a sober person. As someone who can confidently hold my head up high knowing I'll never have to feel the shame of my drinking again.
I see myself not tempted or even caring about alcohol. I do this every night...
I used to do this with sports...picturing how a game was going to go, how I wanted it to go...visualizing how I was going to play. If I believe it enough...it is within my power to make it happen...
This is really insightful. Part of me had to accept I was an alcoholic but also couldn't at the same time. It didn't mesh with my identity when I figured it out. I either had to get away entirely or accept myself as an alcoholic about to enter the later stages of the disease. My mind couldn't handle it and I choose to tap out. If you keep programming yourself as a sober person that gives you a better chance of staying sober.