You can do this Misspolly. The shivers / chills are rough but they only last a day or so. I had them bad. Of course, if you feel like you need it, seek medical help for your withdrawals.
Once you get through withdrawal, come up with a plan to keep yourself sober. Then just work that plan, hit your marks, keep moving forward and count your sober days.
Keep trying AA, give it another chance, even it means just giving yourself to do to keep your mind occupied for the first few days. You don't have to make it a lifestyle long term. Use it as a crutch until you feel better.
SC