I'm really sorry you drank Sweetichick.
Kk1k makes a good point, not the way I made it maybe but I made it a few days back.
If drinking is still your go to solution, how are you going to change things about youself and your life? (I don't need an answer but you really need to think about it)
I also think you need to think about what you want from the folks here.
I hope you decide to do something else the next time something happens that upsets you or makes you feel bad.
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