Glad you decided to post.
Your drinking is exactly like mine was until things got really bad and I was drinking most every day.
Alcoholism is a chronic, progressive, relapsing disease. You're in a bad spot, but believe me it gets worse. My advice would be to quit now, whatever it takes while you can and are still semi-functional.
You've been lurking, so I guess you've read a lot. I hope you've read a lot.
It took me a long time to finally quit drinking. But I drank for thirty odd years. All alcoholically.
Please stop now and save yourself the misery I went through. Do whatever it takes. Go to any length. It is so worth it, because, if you're anything like me, what lies ahead for you is not pretty.
Welcome to posting and best to you.