At some point, though, I've found that people tend to get tired of you if you struggle too much for too long. People say they want you to be yourself. And when things are bad, they say they want you to tell them, to be honest, to ask for help. They want you to confide in them so they can feel they helped you. But if you don't get better, if you cycle through major depression every few years, if you stop pretending to be happy, they get tired. They say you are just happy being miserable. You are just seeking attention. You are stubborn and unwilling to do the work. You lack spirituality and gratitude. It doesn't matter that you've tried. It only matters that you've failed.
So you have to pretend to be happy. You have to pretend that they have helped you. You have to pretend to be someone else.