Hey RainyEngland, why don't you join the 24 hour thread? Just pop in once a day and promise not to drink for the next 24 hours. And then post as often as you need to help you not drink for the next 24 hours. Slowly the days will build up and the cycle will be broken.
If you disappear on a bender, I don't know exactly what will happen but I know none of it will be good. If you stick around here and stay sober, I don't know exactly what will happen but I know you will start to rebuild your life. Because that's what happens when we stay sober. Life doesn't suddenly become perfect but we do start to rebuild. I guess it's human nature. Once we have clarity, we sort stuff out. Clarity or carnage? It's your choice. I hope you stick around.