So, yes, welcome.
You've raised some of the most serious issues and perhaps I'm in a serious mood today as far as answers....
Being afraid of tests? Normal reaction to me- we've abused our bodies for a long time.
Necessary to (finally) do? Absolutely.
Then we deal with the reality.
Which doesn't mean that "clear" or "good" results give us a pass. Yes, our livers (and, ahem, other organs because they are all affected) are resilient. But not permanently so.
I cried the day I got normal tests back, around 100 days, after the initial ones of being so close to cirrhosis it was shocking I wasn't there. Not to mention shocking because of my alcoholic past.
Biggest thing that was tough or scary about quitting? What life would be like on the other side.
I finally took the solution offered in AA, it saved my life and others can share what they did.
Bottom line, I didn't- and don't - want to die from drinking. That CHOICE has given me the best life I can imagine.
Wishing it for you, whatever your vision might turn out to be.
A, peace out