Dear Puck - We’ve all been through some version of what you’re going through right now. I’m 56 and went through 25 years of my Vodka love affair before giving it up for good on May 25 of this year. Like others, I’d have several failed attempts before this. Most of us do lots of reading and researching that leads up to our quitting for good. For me there were a couple things that stood out most. 1. Was all the reading on what life is like after you do too much damage to your liver. Google Alcoholic Hepatitis for lots of motivation on where you DON’T want to end up. 2. Oddly enough, I found inspiration in a YouTube by Craig Ferguson regarding his struggle through Alcoholism. I don’t know why, but it really helped me. Maybe I saw in him, a guy that was pretty darned cool AND didn’t drink. So I figured I could be that way too! Hope this helps a bit.
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