Originally Posted by
trailmix 
Less trying more doing?
It's hard to change patterns. Tough, tough, tough. You of all people know this.
So, a year or so ago you weren't familiar with co-dependency and you weren't in the throes of a quest to untangle yourself from a relationship with an alcoholic. You took steps. Posted here, did research, read books, listened to podcasts etc.
You learned.
Why can you not apply that same tenacity (in small steps) to loosening up a bit?
Put that burden down for a while. Focus on fun. Yes, it might just be that you are going to have to apply the same steps to loosening up and living and enjoying your life as you did to unravelling codependency and attachment to the alcoholic.
You know, you still sound depressed.
You learned.
Why can you not apply that same tenacity (in small steps) to loosening up a bit? you learned.
I suppose because i fear that I'll forget it all, that I have to keep on top of things. I dont see it as something that you learn and then move on, to me your continually learning and I haven't "healed" yet in terms of inner child work. That takes years. This week I'm tired of it. As for depression I've been fine these last weeks it's this week I'm feeling this way so I dont think so.