I think the problem is, and I only speak for myself, when we have a certain amount of time sober the brain (AV) tells me that it wasn’t that bad and I get a sense of entitlement, then when I relapse obviously everything comes back harder and a lot worse, which is why I think I need to try and change the way I think about alcohol, I’ve often said if we had a person treating us like alcohol does they wouldn’t be in our lives for long 👍