Nichole, you’re thinking the right things. You’ve got to be truthful with that doctor. Think of it this way, you’re only lying to yourself, and wasting your time and hers if not. Just start talking, “Ok, here’s the deal Doc...” Trust me you can’t shock her.

Then you’re going to need real help and suggest AA for you. I really do, even though I don’t go. There is zero support system there for you. Your home life is the opposite of a support system. You’re right, you don’t want to die of booze at 30. I’m pretty sure you don’t want an angry drunk guy cussing at you to the point where you have to leave the area on a consistent basis, as you’ve communicated to us recently. You’ve got 60 years of an awesome life ahead of you if you get sober. It’s sheer misery, the booze, and you know that. Drinking will never be better, it will be worse. You deserve it!!! You’re tough. You’re a good person. And you can do it. 💜💜🌈🌈


With Love,
VIPER 🐍