Originally Posted by
SoberCAH 
No one wants you to beat yourself up.
We're just suggesting that you consider ways to not let yourself get this disturbed, because it can be an impediment to sobriety.
In other words, these rages can make us more susceptible to drinking again, even though you mercifully did not do so this time.
Congrats on your sobriety.
Thanks SC.
I wasn’t implying anyone was making me beat myself up.
It’s just what I usually do if I lose my cool.
This time I just accepted I lost my cool, and I am ok with that.
I realise the dangers but I feel I needed to do it.( I don’t plan to make it a habit)
A statement if you like.
I got extremely angry at alcohol/my beast and that helped me beat it.
It’s my last resort, i’ve got to hate it to be rid then come to terms with it in my own time.