I'm always so sorry to read others stories on here and remember what it felt like in those early stages of this problem. You have been together 5 years and it feels like your world is falling apart and you have to be super mom to your son. I have been there countless times.
Remember, at least it has happened 5 years in and not 25. You still have your youth and hopefully your confidence isn't completely shattered. He has done damage but it could be so much worse with the right amount of time. You can love someone deeply but not be with them. When an alcohol problem is involved it's usually for the better, even if you don't see it right now.
I have confidence that you and your son will be just fine. Your kids can be a great comfort in bad times. They love unconditionally.
Peace to you and I wish you the very best. You will get through this.
