I still remember that insane rollercoaster like it was yesterday. Thank god, for me... it was last May. I’m not saying this to make you feel bad... it’s deeply painful... BUT also, very toxic for you and YOUR well-being. All this chaos will (and is) destroying your health! Took me far too long to realize this. Let that sink in... HIS addiction is hurting you!!! You deserve far more — than being consumed by someone else’s addiction/abusive tendencies. Come here often!