Hi Lucinda
I found when I made my recovery dependent on what others were doing I was setting myself up for disappointment.
yeah it'd be great if we had all the support we wanted or was promised from loved ones and it always looked like the kind of support we wanted - but it doesn't always happen like that.
I found that expecting others not to drink for my benefit often ended in resentment on both sides.
Things will get better in time - you'll be able to go anywhere do anything and be with anyone you like and remain secure in your recovery - but it can take some work and time to get to that point.
This holday may have some tough moments but I hope on the hole you'll have a good, sober time. Here are some tips and thoughts that may help:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...val-guide.html (Social Occasion Survival Guide)