You did a powerful thing for yourself and for your kids by leaving. Enjoy your peace and freedom. You deserve it from all that he has put you through. It is a long road that you must take one step at a time. I have been attending AL-Anon group for about a month now and they really help. I feel allot better after the meeting. Knowing that other people are dealing with the same things as me and sharing is very comforting. Just keep on the path you have chosen. It's the only one that will bring you true happiness. It won't happen overnight but it will happen.