No boo boo Ms Venus Cat.
Your input here is greatly appreciated, you are unfailingly patient and kind.
I can only speak for myself.....I find it hard to imagine what a sober life would be like. I have quite literally drank all my adult life, it is the only life I have known for 40 - odd years. Periods of sobriety only in the last 5 years. So early sobriety is still a novelty. I do the pink cloud thing.....today is all good. The sun is out, its cool, clear and crisp and I've been out walking. Its a high.
But it cant last like that....after some time I tire of it, the routine becomes monotonous. I miss that strange intense focus that can come with drunkeness. The other life beckons and I go back to it. But I am realising that it is becoming harder to come back every time.
Anyway....won't happen today.