Hi Kaily & Obladi,
it's the obvious thing to do, you're right. If it doesn't make sense to me after a couple of sessions, I still can quit. This is certainly the wrong time to exercise avoidance strategies. So, the meeting is on Wednesday, 8 pm.
Meanwhile my friend (the doc) called me, she is going to perform a medical check on me this afternoon (blood sample etc.) and discuss the shrink options.
Thanks to both of you. This is exactely, what I need: a bold kick into the right direction!