I feel like you described still sometimes. But, i am used to it. I call it paws. Basically, entry level insanity from too much drinking.
If i relapsed, there might be some temporary calming, but I know the insanity will come back worse. Viscous circle.
I didn't heal as much as I got used to feeling creepy. Then it got better.
I felt like hell for long long time. But, I used exercise to feel better.
I get adrenaline, endorphins, and dopamine from routine body blasting exercise.
I alternate cardio, 30 minutes, with weight training, 1 to 2 hours, 4 to 7 days a week.
I have a gym membership and it helps. It was hard for me to push myself alone.
I am heavily kindled. The relapse/recovering from booze for the last several decades has permanently altered my brain.
If I relapse again, I might not make it out.
Suffering has been my go to feeling. I call it growing up.
Thanks.