Oh, lovely kaily! I remember your very first posts here so well. I relate to your posts well, too - and the online shopping thing is very familiar. Others have commented on it, perhaps enough, tho one suggestion I have is to start and keep photo albums on your phone if you have an iPhone like me. I have a lot of them and one "all the pretty dresses" holds clothes and accessory ideas, some of which I do buy and most of which I post there when "inspiration" strikes and it will delay and often prevent impulse or regrettable buys! I have one called "homemaking" too for ideas of how we will do our condo when we get one!
You have come.so.far. I think you know that deep down- and I KNOW you don't want to go back to your earliest vodka full days and sickness and despondency.
So glad you are sharing. Keep sharing. Know that we get it. I am always so grateful when I get thru the downs (etc!) that you describe, sober.
Hugs
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