being permanently sober is hard, in the beginning - but the more I did it the better it felt, and the easier it got.
I realised a lot of my drinking was to try and please people - to ft in, to not bring others down, to assuage my angst when I couldn't tell people what I wanted to say, or to try to live with things I was too scared to try and do anything about.
The more sober time I had the more I valued myself - and the more I valued myself the less desire I had to drink.
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