TM - I'm glad you wanted to talk about it. It really helps with our anxiety when we're open. We all understand what you're going through - and we know you can get free.
Use this miserable time as a lesson - write down how you're feeling. You never want to go through this again. There's no fun left in it for us - and never will be. It can't have the desired effect we imagine it will. Let's try this again.