Started Again
Hi everyone. I’m ashamed to say that I’ve been drinking again. I fell off the wagon around 2 weeks ago and can’t get back on track. I’m away for a weeks holiday with my parents and niece at the moment and planned to stop the day we came. I felt so ill though that I drank to get over the withdrawals.
I’m here but the whole of me isn’t. Every waking moment, I’m slipping off to top up or plot how to get rid of the empty cans/bottles. It’s exhausting being so secretive all the time. I hate who I am and how I’m behaving right now but tomorrow will probably wake still feeling so desperate for something that gives me no pleasure whatsoever.
I feel total despair and have no idea how to get out of it.