Originally Posted by Ann25
I know in my head that these are my feelings and I have to deal with them but I just cant. Its so hard. The pain and hoplessness I feel is real and I feel like I deserve it.
We can't "deal" with our feelings.. we have to feel them. I have never been able to convince my feelings to go away no matter what I tried to bribe them with. As a result I had to go through feeling my share of pain and hoplessness when I first got clean and until I worked on a bunch of my self acceptance.
We do deserve our feelings. In fact we always did but because of my fear of them I tried to bury them away where they wouldn't be able to reach me.
It's only natural that when we stop running we have so many come looking for us to resolve. You don't have to run from them anymore. They are shadows of things gone by. remember that what you did to cause those feelings was in the past and you are not doing that stuf anymore.
Ask your higher power for the gratitude to be able to experience a full range of human emotion.
Today we can survive our feelings without using.
Do I make ANY sense at all?
absolutely