Hello everyone,
My brain is like thick mud today, nothing is moving, so a very lazy day today for me.
It is a slow transition over the years how drinking changed for me. It’s such a slow change that it is almost hard to notice the change because the lines get blurred as my brain changed. I am just realizing that each time I reached for that drink, it wasn’t for fun. It was to get relief from anxiety and to lift my unhappiness which it clearly wasn’t doing. It just made it worse, but that one part of my brain said fun and the other part of my brain was so messed up it didn’t hear it.
I refer to myself as a slow learner lately mainly because of all the years of hurting my brain with booze. I have faith that will improve with time. I think that is what is scaring me a lot right now, my lack of being able sometimes to comprehend what I read and to think straight. I am just going to chalk it up to a down day today.
It has been so hot lately, when it cools a bit I need to get out for a fresh air walk.
