I know in my head that these are my feelings and I have to deal with them but I just cant. Its so hard. The pain and hoplessness I feel is real and I feel like I deserve it. I KNOW I DO!!! I made my bed........
I find myself still wondering where/when did I cross that line????????????
Does anyone else ever wonder????????
Also--I read on a site that when we (dont know how to word it) live this life--that we had some part of deciding what are path was going to be--experiences that we wanted to have....I just cant imagine that anyone would ever want to experience being an addict. I think that I could deal with physical pain then all this emotion. It s**ks!!!
Do I make ANY sense at all?