I kind of see where your coming from with this. I too do thing's like that. But its all good things I am training myself for this hopefully long journey of sobriety. And it seems to be working for me. Just like we use to prime ourselves to booze. Now I flipped the script and prime myself with sobriety. And I feel good about it. Everything I do is for the good. We are just like a baby now we nurture this thing called sobriety. Starting New. I have 111 days today. And I am on so greatful. It takes discipline. But its doable. One day at a time .