Im such a brat!!!!!!!!!!!
Im sitting here at work feeling sorry for myself--fighting back tears and you would think that I would at least be grateful for what I do have in my life. Many people have it far worse then I ever have and all I think is--POOR ME!!!
I worked today because I thought that would help me stay out of my head--but ya know what--know matter where I turn--THERE I AM!!!!!!!!! GO FIGURE!
Its not really that I want to get high--its that all consuming guilt!!!! It never goes away!!!!!!! I feel guilty about everything!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate this feeling. And I know its just going to get worse through the holidays!!!! How can I get past this????