Welcome Jen, I hadn't heard of Annie Grace when I first came here, but it was attempting -and majorly failing - 'Dry January' which made me realise I could not do this without support. I also had to own my drink problem and commit to change
That is super scary when our AV is constantly bleating that we don't have a problem! For me it said I was just a glutton who drank too much. And of course I compared my drinking with my ex who was a hardened alcoholic, and decided that as I wasn't as bad as him, I was ok! The things we do to justify just one more drink.
It was here I learned that was my addiction talking and I had to learn to let my rational self be louder.