daveycrockett

There is no life after a nervous breakdown at least for me there isn't. I'm all alone with zero friends and zero family except for my son. I need a friend but I don't know how to make a friend anymore. People just think I'm looney and I have no credibility. I really just can't take being alone anymore just so frustrating. It really sucks to lose all your friends and family because you had a nervous breakdown and no one wants to know you anymore.

I'm trying to get help now because I know I have severe gallbladder issues and probably liver disease too. I called the gastroenterologist I had seen before and I cannot get an appointment without a referral I cannot get a referral because I don't have a primary care doctor anymore. I called the clinic and asked if they could give me a referral and she said she didn't think so not to a specialist. She said to go to the ER which I cannot do because of extreme severe phobia all the talking and coaxing in the world will not get me to go there especially alone.

I've been trying for over a week now to get an appointment with a psychiatrist and I am unable to do so I've called every single psychiatrist that accepts Medicare that is near me and not one of them has called me back. I have called all of them at least twice and some of them three and four times.

I am eating very little but I am still working a security job which is getting strenuous to me because of my failing health. The two times I went to the psychiatric places here they asked if I was suicidal I told them the truth I wasn't and they just told me to go home. I'm not going to lie and say I'm suicidal when I'm not. Anyways I don't know what a person like me with extreme debilitating phobias is to do.

I have been sober for over a year since memorial day last year. but I am honestly planning to get to the liquor store today because that's the only thing I know to do when I'm in situations like this. The medical field has refused to help me consistently throughout my life so I guess I'll just drink myself to death now maybe. I need help and no one wants to help me I don't know what to do please offer any advice, thoughts please.