To those who posted kind, encouraging, and/or helpful words, from the bottom of my heart - thank you.
Not sure if I'm posting this correctly - commenting in this forum never felt natural and I think I made plenty of user mistakes. Anyhow, if this is going out, I;d like to continue discussion.
Indeed, the resentment is festering and has already shown a little. Some tears for time lost, how our son might have developed in a more normal home (who knows, better or worse - as he seems quite good and well-adjusted, for being 18 - lol!)
That will take time and if she keeps clean (not the best odds), can we go forward without the past rotting me/us from the inside out, so to speak.
