I think it’s great that you see the beauty!!

in my own experience, it worked better for my sobriety and for the vastly increased beauty to see that past beauty as the beauty in my life DESPITE alcohol...... not because of it.

‘WOW! Even though I spent decades abusing alcohol, I still kept my career, have these beautiful children, made it to sobriety alive!!’

That sort of thing.

for me, flirting with looking at alcohol as a positive was a great way to bring me back to justifying my long-held belief I just needed to ‘moderate’.

which, for me, never worked....

sobriety has held so much greater, more present, more lasting beauty....