Originally Posted by
Sasha1972 
I am not dealing with someone who demands more and more and will be aggressive and crazy when I don't give them everything they want. I do not have to assume everyone who wants something from me is behaving like an alcoholic. I should know better.
You DO know, intellectually, but after so many years spent hunkered down waiting for the next craziness it becomes so engrained you don’t even know you’re doing it.
I always expect to be judged negatively by others, thanks to six decades of my father’s tirades and criticism. I spend countless hours unconsciously preparing myself to head off potential criticism from
total strangers. Doctors. Delivery guys. Hairdressers. Veterinarians. Checkout clerks. All people who don’t even remember me three minutes later. It’s ludicrous and exhausting. But wow the habits of a lifetime die hard, yes?
Sending you a big hug, Wonder Woman. You’re doing great.